Mentor hunting

Since the last time I blogged, a few things have happened:
1.) I've been seriously thinking about moving to another state.
2.) I've applied to 2 jobs in California.
3.) I've been looking for and researching jobs in Texas.
4.) I've considered changing careers.
5.) I'm still looking for a property manager to rent my house (I need to do this more aggressively).
6.) I'm kind of still want to move back to Richmond.

As you can see.....I'm all over the place. I'm aware of this, but while talking to a friend today, it was basically confirmed by another person who has listened to me go on about all the disarray that yes....I'm just all over the place.

I feel like right now, I'm totally lost when it comes to where I should be and what I should be doing. Should I just stay where I am for at least another year and take more time to prepare to leave, or should I continue with my plans of moving?

My friend Dionne suggested that I find a mentor to help direct my path.  I initially figured that I didn't need a mentor even though I'm completely in need of some order in my life. I even said to her "I know I'm all over the place and need guidance, but then again, I don't feel like I need guidance".

                                                     

Confused?

Yeah, me too!

To lay it all out there, job hunting has really caused me to waver in my confidence with wanting to move. I do have an interview on Friday with a school system in Richmond, VA which is a start, but as for all the other jobs I've applied to, nothing has been biting. I can't even lie and say that it's not discouraging that I'm not hearing anything back because it is. I'm trying to be patient and know that everything will work out the way it's supposed to, but for right now, I admit that I have good days and bad days when it comes to all of this. I just want to be clear on what I'm supposed to do and be sure I'm not making a decision that I'll regret later.

Wait....did I just say that...?

I was just talking the other day about how I'm taking chances and not living my life with regrets! If I fail, it'll be counted as a learning experience and I'll move on, but now I feel like I'm getting cold feet and moving back to the "safe" zone. I reflected on my 20s and realized that I lived my life in a very safe way. I took minimal risks and played everything as safe as possible when it came to dreaming big and executing those dreams. I vowed that I would live my life differently starting in my 30s, yet now I feel like because I'm a bit discouraged, I'm reneging on being bold and living my best life. 

I know I just need to see it all through and keep moving. Discouragement will happen and road blocks will set you back at times, but I need to erase any negativity and just keep pushing. 

As for that mentor, I'm going to take Dionne's advice and get to searching. I mentor a young girl who is in middle school now and I feel like I give her practical advice because "been there, done that". If someone could be that for me, I feel like I need to take them up on the offer. 

....I got nothing to lose....only gain!